I am overwhelmed. Consumed. Trapped. Obsessed. Angry. Frustrated. Determined.

Why, you ask?

Because I am in the process of attempting a myspace layout for a band, and I am not happy. Anyone can make a layout work, but I want to create one from the ground up, without restrictions, that sings.

Just working is not good enough for me. A standard layout with custom graphics does not work for me.

I see them all OVER myspace, the fabulous off-the-chart layouts created by professionals, so I KNOW it can be done. I just have to figure out how. And I don’t want to start from scratch, because why reinvent the wheel? Obviously the secret to coding a layout on myspace has been cracked, I just have to find where it has been exposed.

Yes,  I want a cheat sheet! Do you know where to start? My google and yahoo searches aren’t pulling much up, other than myspace layout generators and that is NOT what I want. I want to be able to create, then code around what I have created. I do not want to have to create according to a pre-written code.

Does that make sense?

Geez. Somebody help me, please. I’m in a desperate place right now! I need this to occupy my mind until my spiffy new camera gets here (so I can get shots of the band to incorporate into their myspace layout that is totally going to kick major ass because you are going to help me find that ever elusive cheat sheet). Right?

This might be my first “People Piss Me Off” post. Can’t believe it took this long!!

Let me just say something first… IF you happen to be effin lucky enough to be my myspace friend, and I delete you - suck it up. You had to know it wouldn’t last long, because I probably never really liked you that much anyway. HOWEVER… if you are my *&%*&^*&% family and you think I have deleted you from my “Myspace Friends” list - try this: ASK ME!!!

My day just took a drastic turn south when I checked my myspace email. When I saw the subject line of “deleted?” I thought - what? Wonder what this is about…

I never should have opened that *&%*&^*&% email, because A) it hurt my feelings and B) it made me cry. Both of those things suck, and in turn just really pissed me off.

It wasn’t a simple “Hey, what’s up? Why did you delete me? Or did you? Maybe myspace is stupid and whacky and something crazy just happened and you didn’t delete me - let me know. …” Ya know, something simple, something civil.

Oh no. Not in my life, you can bet your ass on that! It was an absolute “Slit Your Throat” approach that attacked me on every level. For something that I did not do (I didn’t delete this person, btw - I honestly never even look at my friends list TO delete anyone, because I just DON’T CARE that much), I was laid into from everything about my relationship with this person, to my parenting, to the things I need to do to see what’s wrong with ME and why I am not happy with myself…  oh  and several times it was pointed out that I’m a hypocrite…

Nice. Thank you!

My background music just changed.

I’m so *&%*&^*&% tired of being attacked lately, it’s just not even amusing anymore. I don’t get involved in people’s business, I keep their secrets, I treasure them individually, yet I always end up being the bad guy. I’m sick of it. I’ve had my fill.

I wish I had a place I could go to where I could just SCREAM really loud and no one could hear me.

This is such crap.

I’m over it. I’m a good person. I don’t mistreat people. I’ve had my say, and I’m moving on… it’s all bullshit anyway.