I’m not sure if it’s something I’ve mentioned here before or not, but I have a heart condition called SVT (Supra-ventricular tachycardia). I don’t really know how to explain it, because even though I was diagnosed over 2 years ago with this condition, I am still learning about it. As my doctor explained to me, it’s similar to an electrical shortage between my brain and my heart that causes my heart to race, sometimes wildly. I’m on medication to lower blood pressure and reduce episodes of SVT.  However, lately I feel  like I have been having nearly back to back episodes, and am wondering if my dosage should be increased. I know that it can be increased several times over what it is now (I’m on the lowest dosage) but I can’t help but wonder if that’s a good thing? I realize the medication helps me, my heart, my body… but I have some serious issues going on with turning 35 this month and, call me crazy, but I have visions of myself being old a senior citizen and taking 27 pills a day just to stay alive. I don’t want to be that person! Isn’t that just absurd?

I suppose I just need to call my doctor, and ask. It could be a s simple as taking 2 pills a night instead of 1… and aside from the above mentioned visual, it’s not so bad. What scares me more than taking pills to survive, is not surviving. I have been terrified since Iwas diagnosed with this, due to the fact that my grandma died at 55 from heart problems (I don’t know specifically what, and I should, but I’m starting to think no one in my family has the correct information regarding her heart condition). I have spent my whole life scared of dying too young, and always feeling like I would… when I had N it became an even more real fear… then my doctor said “Yep, there’s something wrong with your heart…” and I thought surely, this is the part where I fall over and die of a heart attack (no pun intended)… but I didn’t. I survived the news… I just worry that I won’t survive this life, with this heart.

Clearly, I obsess too much over something that so many people live with day in and day out who have no one in their family history that has ever died of a heart condition, but I have. And everytime my heart goes into an arrhythmia and I feel lightheaded and N is around I can’t help but think, Please God, not yet… and especially, not in front of him.

Oh anyway!! Way to get emotional, when all I intended was to write about my heart condition and ask if anyone that might read this ghost town of a blog happens to have a heart condition similar, or not? Or anymore information regarding SVT?

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