Day 2 - in many ways. Day 2 of my attempting to post everyday (again), and Day 2 that he’s gone. Today, I cried. I was overwhelmed and it was around the time that usually he calls me, or I call him and we dump on each other the problems of our day. I know, not a very constructive situation, but it works well for us. It keeps us sane. Today I was overwhelmed with so many things, feeling emotional about a lot of what is going on and on top of it all, Christmas which is quickly approaching. Not having a job right now just adds to the stress. I needed to talk to him today, and I couldn’t call him. I just put my head in my hands, and I cried. I miss him listening to me, and talking me through my emotional meltdowns. I miss the sound of his voice, and the way he makes me laugh when I don’t even want to smile. This is going to be rough for me. I wonder if it’s nearly as rough for him. I know it’s probably killing him being away from his girls. I just wonder, does me miss me too? I think he probably does. Probably not as dramatically as I do, but that’s because… well, I’m dramatic. He can be too, but I definitely have him beat.

I had to take what little money I have right now today and go hunt down some school uniform pants for my boy today. He is all of a sudden growing like a weed, and everything is getting too tight. His clothes always get too tight, right before they get too short. So… I know what’s coming. And if that’s not enough, I swear the kid must have 47 loose teeth in his head. I hope the Tooth Fairy can handle all of those teeth…

I just finished watching The Biggest Loser, and once again, I am inspired. Will I do anything about it? I don’t know. I always say I will, then I start something, then I don’t follow through. But the honest to God truth is, I am not happy with my body right now, and I really do want to do something about it. I just get overwhelmed so easily, and I don’t know where to start, and I get extremely discouraged when I don’t have instant results. Unrealistic, I know. That’s just me, though.

Have you heard the song “Hard Candy Christmas” by Dolly Parton? I hadn’t heard it before today, but when I did - well, that’s about the time the tears started flowing. It’s a good song. It’s very me, and very fitting. At least for now. It’s my 2008 Holiday Theme Song. Officially.