I failed at my 30 posts in 30 days for November. I almost made it. Story of my life: almost. Too bad almost doesn’t count, eh? Oh well. I’ll try again cuz I’m no quitter I just got real busy, if you must know. Thanksgiving week, no school, all that jazz - it was a great week. I enjoyed spending time away from the computer and with my boy. And with Dennis before he left.

He left today, for 28 days. I feel so lost. I hate that I can’t pick up my phone and call him whenever I want. His name is never more than 3 last calls down in my cell phone, because we talk *all* the time. I feel like I am going through detox! He really is one of my best friends, and I tell him EVERYthing. Now, I will just blog about it.

And FYI, I think someone (you know who you are) is stalking my blog. Hope you’re having fun. I have nothing to hide. Seriously.

Today was a long, long day. We had Internet connection issues and everybody seemed to have their panties in a wad over it, and of course they all just assume, because I’m the geeky computer nerd of the family, that I KNOW what the problem is and can fix it, pronto. Whatever. I nearly lost all contact with reality over that silly incident… I am on an emotional overload.

My pending divorce is due to be finalized in January. I’m very much looking forward to being divorced, on one hand, but am disappointed that I didn’t make better choices and will BE divorced due to that. On top of my disappointment in the failure of my marriage, I’m anxious about the divorce. I always feel like there’s a snake in the grass waiting to strike at the last minute. If that even makes any sense. I just want it to be over with already, so I can move forward and stop stressing out over it. We do a good job, I think, of compromising and coming to rational conclusions when it comes to N, but sometimes we are both guilty of letting our emotions rule us, and this first Holiday season dealing with life as it is now is taking it’s toll - on me, at least.

Oh then there was some stupid girl next door drama (literally). The girl needs a heaping dose of reality, or maybe a 10 day stint in a psych ward. Something. But she certainly needs to step up off of my shit. I got no time for her drama.

So, after all the stress today, my sisters and I took N to a Christmas parade in Mississippi tonight. It was nice, and fun. A welcome end to a stressful day.

I wonder how Dennis is doing. I hope he’s okay. He can’t call for at least a week, but he promised he would call as soon as he could. I hope he does. I already can’t wait to hear his voice.

Oh, and P.S. - I am about to start redesigning this blog. I’m sick and tired of the way it looks, and have figured a few things out. I tried finding something affordable, but I think only I can do it like I want - I’m way too picky. I just have been too lazy to learn the code & structure of Wordpress, but here I go… so, if it looks a little wonky (haha, that’s for you Steph) around here for a few days, or weeks… I don’t know what to tell you lol - be patient with me