…because, I relate to everything via music. Music is such a part of who I am, that I rarely hear something that doesn’t instantly have meaning…

And, because this is his ring tone on my cell phone…

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I’m not sure what to do. Should I pursue? Should I stay where I am (in my comfort zone) with him? Should I just go with the flow? How do I move on when he has my heart in his grip like he does? If nothing is going to come of this, then yeah, I want to move on. Find someone. Build a new life. But I don’t know how…

Is it possible that maybe, possibly, someone will come along and.. oh, I don’t know. What has my mind going like this? Possibly because, someone that I know that I could be interested in has asked me out. Possibly. I don’t feel like I am emotionally available. However, I said yes. Because I don’t want to be bound to someone that doesn’t want to be with me.

I’m rambling. I’m sorry. Everywhere I turn lately it seems someone is there, interested in me – it’s so insane. Is it because I am almost divorced? It’s strange. The thing is, it’s kind of nice. But then, it also scares the living shit out of me because as much as I want to move forward in this life and find someone, I just know I’m not there yet…