I’m glad this weekend is almost over…. It was N’s weekend with his dad, and those weekends always depress me. I try to make myself enjoy the “free time” but I just usually end up worried about everything. And sometimes, making bad choices. I haven’t made any so far this weekend yet lol…. Went out for a little while with  my friend A last night, we really did have fun. We went somewhere that we didn’t know anyone, so that was nice. Until her brother, who happens to be that guy I mentioned a few times before, showed up there on a “date”. And you know what, I guess I am just a jealous person because I thought I really might come out of my box. Especially when he went to sing karaoke and his song choice, ugh. Let me just say, I was a woman on the edge. But I positioned myself where I couldn’t even see them, then I was fine.

It’s so weird. I don’t want him. Really. But I guess on some level, I do like him. I enjoy his company a lot. We get along great. I was out with him Friday night, as a matter of fact.  We have always been good friends, on many levels… And seeing him with someone else just set something inside of me off. I know how he is, and what he does, and I don’t care. I guess I just don’t want it in my face, either. Silly – all of it, really.

I don’t even know why I am writing about it? Maybe I’m low on creativity… geesh. Anyway, I’m headed over to some friends house to watch the Saints game once N gets home, which should be any moment now. Hopefully it will be a good day for us!!

P.S. – Still no phone call. This is causing me to have heart palpitations!