Archive for December, 2008

Today’s conversation with N….

Me: I love you, baby.

N: I love you to mom. And listen, you can call me baby now but when I’m all grown up, can you not call me baby anymore? Because I won’t be one…

Me: *hmph* Well… I don’t care how old you are, or how grown up you are, you’ll always be my baby…

N: Ok look mom, just don’t embarass me with all that baby stuff. That’s all I’m tryin’ to say, alright?

Me: Okay. So can I call you sugar-booger instead?

N: Mom! I said do not embarrass me. You can’t say things like that in front of my friends at school. Do you understand?

Me: … but… but… you are my baby… and my sugar-booger…..

N: Okay mom, how about if you just call me those thing when it’s just me and you. If I let you do that, will you promise not to embarrass me when I’m a teenager in high school?

Me: *snicker* Why, certainly!

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…because, I relate to everything via music. Music is such a part of who I am, that I rarely hear something that doesn’t instantly have meaning…

And, because this is his ring tone on my cell phone…

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I’m not sure what to do. Should I pursue? Should I stay where I am (in my comfort zone) with him? Should I just go with the flow? How do I move on when he has my heart in his grip like he does? If nothing is going to come of this, then yeah, I want to move on. Find someone. Build a new life. But I don’t know how…

Is it possible that maybe, possibly, someone will come along and.. oh, I don’t know. What has my mind going like this? Possibly because, someone that I know that I could be interested in has asked me out. Possibly. I don’t feel like I am emotionally available. However, I said yes. Because I don’t want to be bound to someone that doesn’t want to be with me.

I’m rambling. I’m sorry. Everywhere I turn lately it seems someone is there, interested in me – it’s so insane. Is it because I am almost divorced? It’s strange. The thing is, it’s kind of nice. But then, it also scares the living shit out of me because as much as I want to move forward in this life and find someone, I just know I’m not there yet…

snagged from Charming & Delightful
This is dead on accurate… well, except the part about being patient…

(and I’m out of things to blog about – taking a quiet day)