I am nervous!! I just finished my application to the University of Phoenix Online. Having talked to an enrollment representative over a month ago, and been approved for financial aide over a year ago, you would have thought I would have jumped on it.

I still don’t know why I put it off as long as I did. Probably because it’s a commitment, and it’s scary to me. However, it’s no longer just something that I NEED to do, it’s something I WANT to do. If everything goes smoothly (fingers crossed), I will be pursuing a Bachelor of Science in Information Technology/Multimedia and Visual Communications Degree.

What!? Everytime I say that outloud I get butterflies in my stomach. No kidding. When I read the classes involved, I got weak and lightheaded because it’s SO right up my alley, it’s just STUPID! (And I am such a nerd, that I wish we could change the national language to HTML!)

Stupid good, that is. Stupid amazing. Stupid AWESOME!!

Yeah, I’ve got to expand the vocabulary a bit.

Anyhow. How cool?

Oh, and I am not sure yet, but I think I may have gotten that job I wanted in the ER working overnight. That would so rock. I could still be home during the day, plus do my online classes during the day, while earning a steady income with benefits (and getting out of the house, and meeting new people, and being a socializing part of society again – ya herd?).

If all of this works out, and you can see I am a bit skeptical, I will be so high on life it won’t even be funny! I am trying not to get my hopes up about it too much, because I know how my luck goes, but hopefully that’s all changing and things will look up from here on out. I have reached the bottom of the barrel. There is nowhere to go but up.

I’ve waited my whole life for my life to start, thinking it would have to involve someone else, but the truth is, it doesn’t. I have the best person I could ever have (my son), and with him (and FOR him), I can do this.